This Used to Be Me

This used to be me. The photo was taken at a conference nearly five years ago. It was taken only a few weeks before I got really sick, cold after sinus infection after really bad flu.

I was run down. Working 80-100 hour weeks and having no time to even do groceries that I had them delivered and I’m sure it was all prepackaged convenience food with no nutritional anything.

I was stressed out and running on empty. I end up on three separate rounds of antibiotics in six weeks and I was even more annoyed that I had to fit visits to the doctors clinic between work appointments.

“The body keeps score and it always wins” Brene Brown

I didn’t listen so my body shut me down and I fought it until it got way worse.

About two years later, I discovered that I had adrenal fatigue where your body overproduces cortisol (the flight or fight stress hormone) and produces melatonin (the sleep hormone) in the morning instead of at night.

Too many years of not taking care of myself, no – let’s be honest, too many years of not liking myself had finally caught up to me.

I needed to get healthy.

And I did.

And it was so hard.

But I learned to take care of myself.

It was my lesson.

When people ask me how I've managed to release nearly 90 lbs., I'm often tempted to give them a long list of the things I did (Intermittent Fasting, Bootcamp, No Sugar, Bulletproof Coffee, Meditation, and the list would go on and on and on).

The truth is... none of that worked until I did the work on myself.

When I healed the emotional stuff - the sadness, the unworthiness, the trauma, the guilt, I got to the root cause and that’s when the problem disappeared. And that’s when I finally started seeing results and the weight started falling off.

At 37, I’m healthy, more confident and comfortable in my own skin than ever before. It’s a process and I’ll be the first one to admit that it’s not perfect but it is real... really me.

Elaine Turcotte